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Session Start (Yahoo! - phil_bishop2002: lilchiva): Wed Jul 02 06:31:45 2003
Lilchiva: sup bitch?
Phil_bishop2002: talking with batt about the idea of me seeing a head shrinker...
Phil_bishop2002: maybe it is time I faced the facts, see about "fixing" me with the wonders of modern medicinal drugs...
Lilchiva: not a bad choice right now
Phil_bishop2002: it scares me, Kris
Lilchiva: though I feel ya; it's a hard decision to make
Phil_bishop2002: not, "I am wary", I am against it, I don't think it is right; it down right fucking scares me
Lilchiva: why?
Phil_bishop2002: that, and, I don't wanna admit I was "wrong" all these years...
Lilchiva: if you were diabetic you would have to take insulin to live
Phil_bishop2002: yeah, I know
Lilchiva: why does this mean you're wrong?
Phil_bishop2002: cause, I was always, "I don't need their damn drugs, I can make my way with a "clean" head..."
Lilchiva: RIGHT NOW, not 5 years ago, but RIGHT NOW, you can't do it and maybe in nine months you can, but right now, what you're doing isn't working
Phil_bishop2002: yeah
Phil_bishop2002: Kris, I don't wanna be some little lithium baby
Lilchiva: you think that's what I am?
Lilchiva: right now I am on antidepressants
Phil_bishop2002: nahhh, you got too much THC in you system to have the lithium take "control"
Lilchiva: lol
Lilchiva: you want coffee or Mickey D's?
Phil_bishop2002: maybe...
Phil_bishop2002: I can't sleep; my insides are all knotted up, thinking about this
Phil_bishop2002: hell, I had to take a page out of Mila's "book" to talk to her about it
Phil_bishop2002: I sent her email, talking about my fears, and, maybe I can do this, but, I don't know
Lilchiva: you can do this, Phil
Lilchiva: and it's something you need to at least explore, for yourself and your marriage
Phil_bishop2002: Kris, I got shit ta fight on this concept dating back to friggin 4th grade...
Phil_bishop2002: I know it may "do the trick", but, I am friggin scared
Lilchiva: it's ok to be scared it's very natural, especially for stubborn folk like us
Lilchiva: and the pills won't magically fix your life either
Phil_bishop2002: what if I am not somebody anyone can stand anymore?
Lilchiva: they don't work like that these days
Lilchiva: am I an uber bitch?
Lilchiva: no
Phil_bishop2002: what if they "open up" a side of me that I didn't know was there, and, I drop everything\body around me, and move on?
Lilchiva: a bit more bossy and pushy but still me
Lilchiva: dude, it's not acid
Lilchiva: and besides what if they do? What if it's the life and the person you always wanted?
Phil_bishop2002: Kris, I am afraid that if I start "counseling" and such, the first thing the shrink is gonna tell me is, drop Mila, 'cause it ain't healthy
Lilchiva: I really doubt that the life and person you want to be is without us
Lilchiva: naw, see you're married; they won't do that
Lilchiva: if she was a short-term girlfriend, maybe; but they don't "tell you to do anything"
Phil_bishop2002: I got real bad responses in my head at the very idea of talking to a shrink...
Lilchiva: and if you don't want to be with Mila but don't know how not, then maybe this will let you get clear enough to figure it all out
Phil_bishop2002: hell, I lost my corps to one
Lilchiva: cause it sucks dude
Lilchiva: it means something is wrong that you can't fix with a 30 sec chat with your bros
Phil_bishop2002: I know I am "broken", but, we all are, right?
Lilchiva: everyone is
Lilchiva: you're just not coping as well as you need to
Phil_bishop2002: understatement
Lilchiva: maybe you need more skills and such
Lilchiva: counseling can help with that. some anti- anxiety pills can get you to where leaving the house for work is something do-able
Lilchiva: hey look, I am going to be on most of the morning. pop me anytime
Phil_bishop2002: I really don't have the "stomach" to really "face" much nowadays
Lilchiva: I am "working"
Lilchiva: lol
Lilchiva: I understand, bebe
phil_bishop2002: gotcha... maybe coffee in a bit?
Lilchiva: defiantly
Lilchiva: just let me know. I am on the bike though, but I can go get the car
Lilchiva: though
Phil_bishop2002: well, up to you... I don't know
Lilchiva: doesn't matter. you're my buddy. you wanna, talk we talk
Lilchiva: brb
Phil_bishop2002: brb
Session Close (lilchiva): Wed Jul 02 07:29:19 2003
Session Start (Yahoo! - phil_bishop2002:lilchiva): Wed Jul 02 07:59:48 2003
Lilchiva: when mom wakes up, it's like 2 hours of bullshit before I can get back to work
Lilchiva: lol
Lilchiva: ok I have to go check out fry's in Irving, get my brake pad for the bike, and go to Oak Lawn
Lilchiva: so I was wondering if like around 2 or so you were interested
Lilchiva: or sooner just not before 11
Lilchiva: we can have coffees at cross roads and check out boys;)
Phil_bishop2002: ok... get a hold of me when you are "done"...
Lilchiva: right o
Lilchiva: how ya doing?
Phil_bishop2002: talking with Mila...
Lilchiva: I see
Phil_bishop2002: trying to explain my "decision"
Phil_bishop2002: brb
Lilchiva: well tell her to have a good day
Phil_bishop2002: will do...
Phil_bishop2002: she is getting ready to leave now
Lilchiva: right o
Session Start (Yahoo! - phil_bishop2002: lilchiva): Wed Jul 02 17:56:15 2003
Lilchiva: hey
Phil_bishop2002: heya
Lilchiva: sup?
Phil_bishop2002: waiting for Mila to get home
Lilchiva: ah I had a nappy
Lilchiva: sorry
Phil_bishop2002: I figured, it's all good
Phil_bishop2002: I think I will be doing the shrink thing
Phil_bishop2002: drug regime eventuality and all
Lilchiva: well alright
Lilchiva: I think it will be al right Phil
Lilchiva: alright
Lilchiva: all right
Lilchiva: whatever
Phil_bishop2002: heh
Phil_bishop2002: Mila and I will be talking insurance covered options tonight...
Lilchiva: cool
Phil_bishop2002: so, we will see what happens
Phil_bishop2002: oddly enough, Clay has been talking to me all day, trying to help get me over this idea...
Lilchiva: I understand he is a good friend for that
Phil_bishop2002: yeah... he is
Phil_bishop2002: he is down to 210 pounds...
Phil_bishop2002: he has been working and dieting like a fiend
Phil_bishop2002: he was all the way up to like 250+...
Lilchiva: that's cool
Phil_bishop2002: Mila is here, we gonna talk for a bit
Lilchiva: right o
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Session Close (lilchiva): Wed Jul 02 18:32:18 2003
Session Start (Yahoo! - phil_bishop2002: lilchiva): Thu Jul 10 10:04:53 2003
Lilchiva: yp
Lilchiva: yo
Phil_bishop2002: yo b
Phil_bishop2002: sup?
Lilchiva: not a lot
Lilchiva: just working
Lilchiva: working
Lilchiva: I am thinking this live journal thing or something
Phil_bishop2002: I hope you get paid sometimes soon, you know?
Lilchiva: well
Lilchiva: something will happen probably Friday
Lilchiva: but at least I have gas and smokes
Phil_bishop2002: true...
Lilchiva: could be horrid
Lilchiva: could be doing this and have nothing at all
Phil_bishop2002: ick
Lilchiva: some people (ie any other job) would do that
Phil_bishop2002: yup yup
Lilchiva: I mean if this were a real job I would have to wait until Friday anyhow
Lilchiva: lol
Phil_bishop2002: yeah
Phil_bishop2002: Danielle is soooooo damn happy... she is starting to fit into shirts and stuff that she hasn't in 3+ years...
Lilchiva: Good for her, yo
*** "Lilchiva" signed off at Thu Jul 10 11:34:44 2003.
Session Close (lilchiva): Thu Jul 10 11:39:56 2003
Session Start (Yahoo! - phil_bishop2002: lilchiva): Fri Jul 11 14:40:41 2003
Lilchiva: hey
Phil_bishop2002: yo
Lilchiva: 'sup?
Phil_bishop2002: well, Mila had some things to say last night...
Lilchiva: ah
Phil_bishop2002: yeah
Lilchiva: she mentioned she might speak to you
Lilchiva: what's up?
Phil_bishop2002: not good stuff, that is for sure...
Phil_bishop2002: but hey, thinking about leaving twice a week, instead of daily, is good, right?
Lilchiva: I dunno
Lilchiva: you talking about her or you?
Phil_bishop2002: her life is still running in cycles...(see edbauer and zack), and, I fit into it now...
Lilchiva: you wanna have this on the phone?
Phil_bishop2002: I haven't progressed as a human for too long, we haven't had anything but stagnation for 2-3 years, it would be easier now for us to not be together anymore, cause I have a car, the "usual" Mila stuff
Phil_bishop2002: I think she doesn't just not want roommates, I think she doesn't want anyone with her...
Phil_bishop2002: 'course, her admitting that she was packing the books and stuff from the shelves up, not by shelf, or, genre, but, by owner, is "telling"...
Lilchiva: Phil
Lilchiva: I have a hard correspondence to this
Phil_bishop2002: she just got home...
Phil_bishop2002: what is the response?
Lilchiva: you want it in this box? on the phone or in person?
Phil_bishop2002: box is fine
Lilchiva: you're ill
Lilchiva: and she is very frustrated being in a holding pattern over it
Lilchiva: she can't and doesn't want things to stay like this
Lilchiva: she loves you very much
Lilchiva: I know this
Lilchiva: but you need to take some definite steps to get help instead of making excuses
Lilchiva: if you don't want to be in a relationship with her or your situation then fine
Lilchiva: but cut your losses and run ...passive aggressively fucking up your situation is a bad way to go out
Lilchiva: I love you Phil
Lilchiva: you're my friend
Lilchiva: but from where I am standing, you need to do something
Phil_bishop2002: yeah, I do
Lilchiva: what is that social Darwinist law move or die? I think you're kinda slowly killing yourself right now and it doesn't have to be this way
Lilchiva: sorry bro
Phil_bishop2002: no biggie
Lilchiva: I feel bad now
Phil_bishop2002: I asked, and, it was I expected ta hear
Lilchiva: then what are you going to do?
Phil_bishop2002: the moment I agreed to find professional help, I became ill, and, nothing I would want became no longer serious, because I wasn't right, in the head...
Phil_bishop2002: Roman offered space, unconditionally; I will take him up on it
Phil_bishop2002: after I find out what Mila's "specifics" are..?
Phil_bishop2002: for the last year, things have been getting better, hell; they have been the best yet
Phil_bishop2002: but, the moment I agreed to getting help, I felt a change around here... I couldn't put a finger on it, but it is here
Phil_bishop2002: and now, she is ready to leave, or, have me leave
Phil_bishop2002: she has said nothing of "issues" for quite some time, we are always "cool", but I find out last night, she has actually been planning to leave for a while now
Phil_bishop2002: I feel cheated, I feel like I have been living a lie, and it isn't even mine
Phil_bishop2002: I am not one of her "user" ex's...
Phil_bishop2002: I will not be pigeon holed into that category
Lilchiva: I don't think you are and she doesn't either
Lilchiva: nor does anyone that I am aware of discount your creditability as a person
Phil_bishop2002: I will not be marginalized, because I admitted to being willing to accept professional help
Lilchiva: I don't think anyone is doing that
Phil_bishop2002: she is
Phil_bishop2002: at least, that is what it feels like
Lilchiva: Phil, if she is, it's not around me, that is in no way the tone of any conversation I have had with her about you
Phil_bishop2002: but, this is all worth nothing, till I talk to her, and, maybe, she is honest with me about the why's and the when's and the how's...
Phil_bishop2002: I am off, going to go talk to her, if she will...
Lilchiva: Phil?
Phil_bishop2002: yes?
Lilchiva: that last thing made no since to me
Phil_bishop2002: when did things become stagnation-vile, not they are better, why the sudden change, how does she see them getting "better"?
Lilchiva: I would also add I don't think you have been living a lie
Lilchiva: see, this is why I wanted the phone
Phil_bishop2002: if I have been living in some wonderland, thinking things are going good between she and I, that, for once, we actually had a chance to move on, only to find out, that isn't what has been going on...
Lilchiva: there are things that are better; there are things that are worse ...not so black and white
Phil_bishop2002: yeah, I know
Phil_bishop2002: hey, I am heading out, gonna talk to her...
Phil_bishop2002: I will probably phone you later, ok?
Lilchiva: alright call me later will ya?
Phil_bishop2002: will do
Lilchiva: defiantly, call me then
Lilchiva: lol
Session Close (lilchiva): Fri Jul 11 14:59:20 2003
Lilchiva: sup bitch?
Phil_bishop2002: talking with batt about the idea of me seeing a head shrinker...
Phil_bishop2002: maybe it is time I faced the facts, see about "fixing" me with the wonders of modern medicinal drugs...
Lilchiva: not a bad choice right now
Phil_bishop2002: it scares me, Kris
Lilchiva: though I feel ya; it's a hard decision to make
Phil_bishop2002: not, "I am wary", I am against it, I don't think it is right; it down right fucking scares me
Lilchiva: why?
Phil_bishop2002: that, and, I don't wanna admit I was "wrong" all these years...
Lilchiva: if you were diabetic you would have to take insulin to live
Phil_bishop2002: yeah, I know
Lilchiva: why does this mean you're wrong?
Phil_bishop2002: cause, I was always, "I don't need their damn drugs, I can make my way with a "clean" head..."
Lilchiva: RIGHT NOW, not 5 years ago, but RIGHT NOW, you can't do it and maybe in nine months you can, but right now, what you're doing isn't working
Phil_bishop2002: yeah
Phil_bishop2002: Kris, I don't wanna be some little lithium baby
Lilchiva: you think that's what I am?
Lilchiva: right now I am on antidepressants
Phil_bishop2002: nahhh, you got too much THC in you system to have the lithium take "control"
Lilchiva: lol
Lilchiva: you want coffee or Mickey D's?
Phil_bishop2002: maybe...
Phil_bishop2002: I can't sleep; my insides are all knotted up, thinking about this
Phil_bishop2002: hell, I had to take a page out of Mila's "book" to talk to her about it
Phil_bishop2002: I sent her email, talking about my fears, and, maybe I can do this, but, I don't know
Lilchiva: you can do this, Phil
Lilchiva: and it's something you need to at least explore, for yourself and your marriage
Phil_bishop2002: Kris, I got shit ta fight on this concept dating back to friggin 4th grade...
Phil_bishop2002: I know it may "do the trick", but, I am friggin scared
Lilchiva: it's ok to be scared it's very natural, especially for stubborn folk like us
Lilchiva: and the pills won't magically fix your life either
Phil_bishop2002: what if I am not somebody anyone can stand anymore?
Lilchiva: they don't work like that these days
Lilchiva: am I an uber bitch?
Lilchiva: no
Phil_bishop2002: what if they "open up" a side of me that I didn't know was there, and, I drop everything\body around me, and move on?
Lilchiva: a bit more bossy and pushy but still me
Lilchiva: dude, it's not acid
Lilchiva: and besides what if they do? What if it's the life and the person you always wanted?
Phil_bishop2002: Kris, I am afraid that if I start "counseling" and such, the first thing the shrink is gonna tell me is, drop Mila, 'cause it ain't healthy
Lilchiva: I really doubt that the life and person you want to be is without us
Lilchiva: naw, see you're married; they won't do that
Lilchiva: if she was a short-term girlfriend, maybe; but they don't "tell you to do anything"
Phil_bishop2002: I got real bad responses in my head at the very idea of talking to a shrink...
Lilchiva: and if you don't want to be with Mila but don't know how not, then maybe this will let you get clear enough to figure it all out
Phil_bishop2002: hell, I lost my corps to one
Lilchiva: cause it sucks dude
Lilchiva: it means something is wrong that you can't fix with a 30 sec chat with your bros
Phil_bishop2002: I know I am "broken", but, we all are, right?
Lilchiva: everyone is
Lilchiva: you're just not coping as well as you need to
Phil_bishop2002: understatement
Lilchiva: maybe you need more skills and such
Lilchiva: counseling can help with that. some anti- anxiety pills can get you to where leaving the house for work is something do-able
Lilchiva: hey look, I am going to be on most of the morning. pop me anytime
Phil_bishop2002: I really don't have the "stomach" to really "face" much nowadays
Lilchiva: I am "working"
Lilchiva: lol
Lilchiva: I understand, bebe
phil_bishop2002: gotcha... maybe coffee in a bit?
Lilchiva: defiantly
Lilchiva: just let me know. I am on the bike though, but I can go get the car
Lilchiva: though
Phil_bishop2002: well, up to you... I don't know
Lilchiva: doesn't matter. you're my buddy. you wanna, talk we talk
Lilchiva: brb
Phil_bishop2002: brb
Session Close (lilchiva): Wed Jul 02 07:29:19 2003
Session Start (Yahoo! - phil_bishop2002:lilchiva): Wed Jul 02 07:59:48 2003
Lilchiva: when mom wakes up, it's like 2 hours of bullshit before I can get back to work
Lilchiva: lol
Lilchiva: ok I have to go check out fry's in Irving, get my brake pad for the bike, and go to Oak Lawn
Lilchiva: so I was wondering if like around 2 or so you were interested
Lilchiva: or sooner just not before 11
Lilchiva: we can have coffees at cross roads and check out boys;)
Phil_bishop2002: ok... get a hold of me when you are "done"...
Lilchiva: right o
Lilchiva: how ya doing?
Phil_bishop2002: talking with Mila...
Lilchiva: I see
Phil_bishop2002: trying to explain my "decision"
Phil_bishop2002: brb
Lilchiva: well tell her to have a good day
Phil_bishop2002: will do...
Phil_bishop2002: she is getting ready to leave now
Lilchiva: right o
Session Start (Yahoo! - phil_bishop2002: lilchiva): Wed Jul 02 17:56:15 2003
Lilchiva: hey
Phil_bishop2002: heya
Lilchiva: sup?
Phil_bishop2002: waiting for Mila to get home
Lilchiva: ah I had a nappy
Lilchiva: sorry
Phil_bishop2002: I figured, it's all good
Phil_bishop2002: I think I will be doing the shrink thing
Phil_bishop2002: drug regime eventuality and all
Lilchiva: well alright
Lilchiva: I think it will be al right Phil
Lilchiva: alright
Lilchiva: all right
Lilchiva: whatever
Phil_bishop2002: heh
Phil_bishop2002: Mila and I will be talking insurance covered options tonight...
Lilchiva: cool
Phil_bishop2002: so, we will see what happens
Phil_bishop2002: oddly enough, Clay has been talking to me all day, trying to help get me over this idea...
Lilchiva: I understand he is a good friend for that
Phil_bishop2002: yeah... he is
Phil_bishop2002: he is down to 210 pounds...
Phil_bishop2002: he has been working and dieting like a fiend
Phil_bishop2002: he was all the way up to like 250+...
Lilchiva: that's cool
Phil_bishop2002: Mila is here, we gonna talk for a bit
Lilchiva: right o
*** Auto-response sent to lilchiva: I am currently away from the computer.
Session Close (lilchiva): Wed Jul 02 18:32:18 2003
Session Start (Yahoo! - phil_bishop2002: lilchiva): Thu Jul 10 10:04:53 2003
Lilchiva: yp
Lilchiva: yo
Phil_bishop2002: yo b
Phil_bishop2002: sup?
Lilchiva: not a lot
Lilchiva: just working
Lilchiva: working
Lilchiva: I am thinking this live journal thing or something
Phil_bishop2002: I hope you get paid sometimes soon, you know?
Lilchiva: well
Lilchiva: something will happen probably Friday
Lilchiva: but at least I have gas and smokes
Phil_bishop2002: true...
Lilchiva: could be horrid
Lilchiva: could be doing this and have nothing at all
Phil_bishop2002: ick
Lilchiva: some people (ie any other job) would do that
Phil_bishop2002: yup yup
Lilchiva: I mean if this were a real job I would have to wait until Friday anyhow
Lilchiva: lol
Phil_bishop2002: yeah
Phil_bishop2002: Danielle is soooooo damn happy... she is starting to fit into shirts and stuff that she hasn't in 3+ years...
Lilchiva: Good for her, yo
*** "Lilchiva" signed off at Thu Jul 10 11:34:44 2003.
Session Close (lilchiva): Thu Jul 10 11:39:56 2003
Session Start (Yahoo! - phil_bishop2002: lilchiva): Fri Jul 11 14:40:41 2003
Lilchiva: hey
Phil_bishop2002: yo
Lilchiva: 'sup?
Phil_bishop2002: well, Mila had some things to say last night...
Lilchiva: ah
Phil_bishop2002: yeah
Lilchiva: she mentioned she might speak to you
Lilchiva: what's up?
Phil_bishop2002: not good stuff, that is for sure...
Phil_bishop2002: but hey, thinking about leaving twice a week, instead of daily, is good, right?
Lilchiva: I dunno
Lilchiva: you talking about her or you?
Phil_bishop2002: her life is still running in cycles...(see edbauer and zack), and, I fit into it now...
Lilchiva: you wanna have this on the phone?
Phil_bishop2002: I haven't progressed as a human for too long, we haven't had anything but stagnation for 2-3 years, it would be easier now for us to not be together anymore, cause I have a car, the "usual" Mila stuff
Phil_bishop2002: I think she doesn't just not want roommates, I think she doesn't want anyone with her...
Phil_bishop2002: 'course, her admitting that she was packing the books and stuff from the shelves up, not by shelf, or, genre, but, by owner, is "telling"...
Lilchiva: Phil
Lilchiva: I have a hard correspondence to this
Phil_bishop2002: she just got home...
Phil_bishop2002: what is the response?
Lilchiva: you want it in this box? on the phone or in person?
Phil_bishop2002: box is fine
Lilchiva: you're ill
Lilchiva: and she is very frustrated being in a holding pattern over it
Lilchiva: she can't and doesn't want things to stay like this
Lilchiva: she loves you very much
Lilchiva: I know this
Lilchiva: but you need to take some definite steps to get help instead of making excuses
Lilchiva: if you don't want to be in a relationship with her or your situation then fine
Lilchiva: but cut your losses and run ...passive aggressively fucking up your situation is a bad way to go out
Lilchiva: I love you Phil
Lilchiva: you're my friend
Lilchiva: but from where I am standing, you need to do something
Phil_bishop2002: yeah, I do
Lilchiva: what is that social Darwinist law move or die? I think you're kinda slowly killing yourself right now and it doesn't have to be this way
Lilchiva: sorry bro
Phil_bishop2002: no biggie
Lilchiva: I feel bad now
Phil_bishop2002: I asked, and, it was I expected ta hear
Lilchiva: then what are you going to do?
Phil_bishop2002: the moment I agreed to find professional help, I became ill, and, nothing I would want became no longer serious, because I wasn't right, in the head...
Phil_bishop2002: Roman offered space, unconditionally; I will take him up on it
Phil_bishop2002: after I find out what Mila's "specifics" are..?
Phil_bishop2002: for the last year, things have been getting better, hell; they have been the best yet
Phil_bishop2002: but, the moment I agreed to getting help, I felt a change around here... I couldn't put a finger on it, but it is here
Phil_bishop2002: and now, she is ready to leave, or, have me leave
Phil_bishop2002: she has said nothing of "issues" for quite some time, we are always "cool", but I find out last night, she has actually been planning to leave for a while now
Phil_bishop2002: I feel cheated, I feel like I have been living a lie, and it isn't even mine
Phil_bishop2002: I am not one of her "user" ex's...
Phil_bishop2002: I will not be pigeon holed into that category
Lilchiva: I don't think you are and she doesn't either
Lilchiva: nor does anyone that I am aware of discount your creditability as a person
Phil_bishop2002: I will not be marginalized, because I admitted to being willing to accept professional help
Lilchiva: I don't think anyone is doing that
Phil_bishop2002: she is
Phil_bishop2002: at least, that is what it feels like
Lilchiva: Phil, if she is, it's not around me, that is in no way the tone of any conversation I have had with her about you
Phil_bishop2002: but, this is all worth nothing, till I talk to her, and, maybe, she is honest with me about the why's and the when's and the how's...
Phil_bishop2002: I am off, going to go talk to her, if she will...
Lilchiva: Phil?
Phil_bishop2002: yes?
Lilchiva: that last thing made no since to me
Phil_bishop2002: when did things become stagnation-vile, not they are better, why the sudden change, how does she see them getting "better"?
Lilchiva: I would also add I don't think you have been living a lie
Lilchiva: see, this is why I wanted the phone
Phil_bishop2002: if I have been living in some wonderland, thinking things are going good between she and I, that, for once, we actually had a chance to move on, only to find out, that isn't what has been going on...
Lilchiva: there are things that are better; there are things that are worse ...not so black and white
Phil_bishop2002: yeah, I know
Phil_bishop2002: hey, I am heading out, gonna talk to her...
Phil_bishop2002: I will probably phone you later, ok?
Lilchiva: alright call me later will ya?
Phil_bishop2002: will do
Lilchiva: defiantly, call me then
Lilchiva: lol
Session Close (lilchiva): Fri Jul 11 14:59:20 2003
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