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loloteheI have to say, watching the TV coverage of what’s going on in Baltimore vs what I see on Twitter or Tumbler reminds me a lot of getting out of a bad relationship.
My ex was a classic emotional abuser, and he gas-lighted me a lot. Seeing footage on TV and hearing what’s being said reminds of that on so many levels.I think it’s because I’m the T&T coverage first, then TV’s take, after the fact.
But it always feels the same. “Oh, that’s not what you saw. Why are you being so sensitive? Maybe you have some unresolved issues here.”
People are dying. I don’t know why we have to say more than that, but dying isn’t enough. The bodies aren’t enough. Bodies in the street just aren’t enough.
This is a long-going relationship. “Oh, you’re not good enough and that’s why you’re poor. You can’t be trusted; look at all this crime. If you could just apply yourself more.”
“If you loved me, you would fix this and not blame me.”
“I’m tired of being the bad guy.”
And now, I feel like America is being asked to pick sides in a terrible break-up. And anyone who’s been through a break-up knows about that “your friends vs my friends” thing and well, if you offer them any sympathy then you must like them more than me.
I’ve never had issues with cops (expect for that one that stopped me for stopping at a stop sign and then tried to lecture me about how to wear black clothes) but if you’ve had a shitty experience with them, I can understand.
And I’m not saying all cops are bad. That’s not the case. I’ve met some very nice cops over the years and that’s part of what pains me to watch all this unfold. Good cops are being painted with the same paintbrush.
Now, am I going to drop everything and tell you how #bluelivesmatter? Fuck no. I know we care about police the same way we do firefighters and EMTs. This is like saying a feminist wants to #killallmen. That is not the case.
I’m really sorry this is happening, again. I do what I can with voting but there’s times I feel very helpless. You’re in a bad relationship. I can’t make the other person shape up and stop abusing you.
My ex was a classic emotional abuser, and he gas-lighted me a lot. Seeing footage on TV and hearing what’s being said reminds of that on so many levels.I think it’s because I’m the T&T coverage first, then TV’s take, after the fact.
But it always feels the same. “Oh, that’s not what you saw. Why are you being so sensitive? Maybe you have some unresolved issues here.”
People are dying. I don’t know why we have to say more than that, but dying isn’t enough. The bodies aren’t enough. Bodies in the street just aren’t enough.
This is a long-going relationship. “Oh, you’re not good enough and that’s why you’re poor. You can’t be trusted; look at all this crime. If you could just apply yourself more.”
“If you loved me, you would fix this and not blame me.”
“I’m tired of being the bad guy.”
And now, I feel like America is being asked to pick sides in a terrible break-up. And anyone who’s been through a break-up knows about that “your friends vs my friends” thing and well, if you offer them any sympathy then you must like them more than me.
I’ve never had issues with cops (expect for that one that stopped me for stopping at a stop sign and then tried to lecture me about how to wear black clothes) but if you’ve had a shitty experience with them, I can understand.
And I’m not saying all cops are bad. That’s not the case. I’ve met some very nice cops over the years and that’s part of what pains me to watch all this unfold. Good cops are being painted with the same paintbrush.
Now, am I going to drop everything and tell you how #bluelivesmatter? Fuck no. I know we care about police the same way we do firefighters and EMTs. This is like saying a feminist wants to #killallmen. That is not the case.
I’m really sorry this is happening, again. I do what I can with voting but there’s times I feel very helpless. You’re in a bad relationship. I can’t make the other person shape up and stop abusing you.
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Date: 2015-05-03 03:29 am (UTC)We live in interesting times.